It's very frustrating at the moment. Incredibly frustrating. Over 6 months till I begin my new life and at the moment, life couldn't be travelling more slowly. I have nothing to do, no one to be with, little activity to enjoy that doesn't involve being abused in some form or another and I'm starting to get a bit agitated by everything.
I haven't had the best of days. I didn't really talk about it earlier, but I haven't had the best of days as far as mood goes. I try not to let it affect me too much, but the pros said to try not to fight it too much, because I will have stages. And that's fine, it's bound to happen. It doesn't mean I have to embrace the bad moments though. The only thing they did say was to try and talk and open up more and I think I have, a bit. I mean, it's that time of night again. Past midnight, where thoughts start flooding out and the heart-to-hearts start to begin.
The only people around though are either people who say "awww sorry to hear that", or state the obvious and don't help at all. I don't blame them, I am much the same, but if opening up to people is meant to make you feel better, then I can't see the reasoning behind it. Not at the moment anyway. Sometimes, although it may be difficult, I do just need to be told what I need to hear.
Not what I want to hear.
And to be honest, I don't know how to explain it and why I'm even bothering, because I can't. And you lot don't want to hear about it.
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