This is literally just a side note, but a side note worth saying. Some of you might be wondering where all the usual talk of depression and low mood is. Most of you are probably pleased that you don't feel like you should read things like that anymore, but mainly, I am pleased I am no longer feeling that way. I still get very mild feelings of low mood, but that's in the same way as everyone does. Everyone feels a bit ... "bleurgh" from time to time, and unfortunately, I am not exempt from such feelings.
This is because I made a decision to turn my life around. I had fallen deep into a large black hole that sucked the life out of me until it was just impossible to carry on in the same vein. The Christmas and New Year period was the defining moment in this, (I won't be saying what happened - Only the people who I feel should know, do know) but I now focus on what I want from life and nothing more. I don't even think about it, I just do it. And I am all the better for it. As are the people around me.
I have recovered, I am sure of it. Because of that, I won't even be mentioning the 'D Word' from now on in this blog, unless I am unlucky and/or undisciplined enough to fall back into the same patterns I did before. I am sure I have turned a corner however, and thank God for that!
For those of you out there who, over the years, said things such as, "You have no idea what depression feels like", or, "You've got nothing to be depressed about", I can tell you now that you were very wrong indeed. You have little idea how much those words damaged me, albeit sometimes for a short period of time, but be sure to think about what you say to people before you say something.
Harmless banter in your eyes might be hurtful words in the ears of another.
However, I am no longer that person. We'll say no more on the subject. Onwards.
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