Slipping Away

I feel a bit down in the dumps this evening. It's fairly late considering I awoke at 6am after compeltely missing out Monday as usual, and to be honest, I feel a bit like I need my own space. Just time on my own to reflect on, well, everything. However, despite wanting to be alone, I also want to be around people I get on well with but they all seemed to have their own plans today. This makes me feel like I'm slipping away from the people I get on well with, leaving me to work, sleep and work. Bed to work, constantly, despite these 4 days off and well, whatever happens, that is bad news...

I may be going out on Thursday night for a bit of what tabloids call 'teen drink binging' but there's nothing wrong with losing your head once in a while.. Definitely is once in a while for me at the moment, which makes it all the more special..

Big news though, as I spent some of this afternoon making extra-preliminary enquiries into places of my own. I am fully aware that I still owe the rents some money and I'm fully aware that I need to raise funds to get in the place first, but I feel like I'm beginning to become unwanted here. The parents just want the place to themselves, I can feel that, so this is the last place I want to be at the moment.. I'd love space of my own, where I can do my own things and do what I want to do..

Just not with the people I want..