Life Goes On

Hello. Been a while...

I haven't neglected this blog on purpose. I usually have words to write, or problems to digest but everything has been going so swimmingly lately, it's hard to know what to put. With the copious amounts of problems written in these dark pages, it feels odd to write in it with nothing to say. Apart from the fact that life is good. Life goes on.

The whole documentary life has been a bit stop-start recently, but with confirmation of the first filming date on 10th June (shit, that's in 9 days time!) that really will kick on from now. I believe the broadcast date is on 4th August, so I will be plugging that 'til kingdom come closer to the time. I was thinking about the whole thing earlier, whilst coasting along the country roads of Maulden in my new job that I have settled into like a duck to water. It really is such a unique and amazing opportunity and I am so excited to get going.

Ahh yes. The new job. Of course, things weren't going well in the old one but this new jaunt into the working life, a mere delivery driver for Argos, is right up my street. It only took me eight years, but the fear of being judged for what you do for a living is gone. I happily walk to work sporting my bright yellow Argos hi-vis and have since worked out that no one really gives a damn. Working as a 'Data Analyst for the NHS' sounds pretty up market after all. That isn't why I pursued that kind of work, but it played a tiny part in me not looking for something I enjoyed but may be seen as crap. Or "not ambitious enough". Or "not fulfilling my potential".

It's always been a weakness of mine. I do care of what people think of me, and this stretches back to the school days.

I remember times when I loved playing snooker with my Dad, but was embarrassed about walking the short walk from the car to the snooker hall, cue in hand, in case anyone from school saw me and took the mickey for liking snooker. It's utterly ludicrous looking back on it, but that's just who I was. In some ways, it still is who I am. But I've been through too much to care a lot these days.

So, that's basically it. A smooth road lies ahead, and I'm very confident I can keep it smooth. This is a brand new feeling... And I like it very much!