The Day of Reckoning

Ok, I've made that sound as if it's Doomsday again and to be honest, it is only a football match, but this is bigger than I could of imagined. Loads of people are going to be there, every single one of my teammates are "buzzing" and a couple of players are disappointed bordering angry about missing out.. Sometimes even petulance and immaturity gets in the way - which isn't great. Me though. I knew I was guaranteed a place from the moment we won the semi-final, (bar any injuries or suspensions), and I haven't felt nervous at all. Until now.

The butterflies have come back and nested in my stomach, ignoring the beautiful sunshine outside and I've got a couple of hours to waste now before we start our mammoth journey to the ground. It will be the longest 15 minutes of my life anyway.. Turning up in shirt and tie and doing the whole pre-match routine of a cup final will get the nerves going in even the most hardened professional, but me, as weak mentally as I am physically, I'm gonna be a nervous wreck. Hopefully these nerves go away as soon as we start, just like last time. I would all the money in my bank account at the moment to not make a match-deciding mistake this evening, (work that out for yourself..) I just want a nice, solid game. If I do all I can, without making a mistake, I will be happy enough. Even if we do lose.

This next couple of hours are going to go terribly slow. It's times like these I would like the Tardis or Bernard's Watch to change the course of time and just get on with it! Do you remember that programme? 'Bernard's Watch'. No kid in the galaxy would be trusted to use an instrument that stops time in a sensible manner. I would just stop everyone and everything then just go around driving people's cars and eating free food from Burger King amongst other things.. You just would! Ok, I'm trying to distract myself..

There's no point documenting any further. I am nervous and typing a few words won't help. I just hope all goes swimmingly and hopefully we'll come away with a win. I'd like that.

Bye x