Sans Le Chocolat

For those of you without a French disposition, basically, I don't get any. You see, after 18 years of having 2 weeks off at Easter as standard, this year I don't even get the Easter weekend off as I have to go into work to finish this god-awful laptop training course at BP. Seriously, I talked about it on the post before, however, I don't think I got the message across of how bad this course is. You see, I would rather be tortured by a North Korean government official with kerosene and rat poison while tied to a chair with spikes on the back, with live snakes, while Heart FM, (and therefore constant Jason Mraz), is on the radio at full blast.. I'm awake at 5:30am, for some absurd reason that I cannot fathom, and I start the 2nd part of this hideous training at 10am for 8 hours and I may well fall asleep by 1.. Someone please help me.

Despite this, I haven't been in the best of moods recently. This has nothing to do with the depression or work or family.. well, maybe a little bit, .. but the point is, I am just generally annoyed. I think it's the lack of money as I THINK my first pay-packet comes on the 15th May. Yes... MAY. I get paid on the 15th of each month but have to work 2 weeks in arrears. So, my 2 week "arrears" will end on the 15th April, so on the 15th April, I get what I'm earned contractually... nothing. So It dawned on me that I'm not going to have any money for 6 weeks and I will be working for 6 weeks without any money. I fear a stage of depression.

So, for the first time in a long, long time, my wish to win the lottery is unbearable. Even me, who has a "slight" gambling streak, NEVER buys a lottery ticket, because the chance of winning the jackpot is about as small as the cup of coffee I'm drinking... I don't like coffee.. However, I may well buy one this afternoon, for this evening's draw, if I haven't died of boredom, just so I have a minor chance of winning something big. If I'm to listen to Dale Winton's advice, You've gotta be in to win it!

Despite my boredom of being sat in front of a laptop all day, I hope to do something in the evening. I have nothing planned, but hopefully if you're reading this then please come up with something. Please. I may go out for a curry on Sunday, but once more, the money issue comes into play.. I have an Easter weekend full of boredom. I'm not used to it.

I'm going to go now.. I have a few iPlayer programmes to watch ... at 6.30am... What am I doing???

By the way, I'd thought I'd add a thought at the end of this post. Current time - 09:34. Ok, I was up very early this morning and those iPlayer programmes were very good, thanks for asking, however, I do feel better for myself now I'm going off to do this 8-hour course, (did I mention it was boring?) I should make a habit of getting up earlier than I need to.. I'd feel better going off to work.. I do.

Cya x