Acclimatisation

I rule at long words. Some would call it laziness, however, I've come to the conclusion that staying up till the early hours is good preperation for my recent employment opportunity. I have to be awake at 10am however to stroll down to the establishment I work for to fill in some documentation and prepare before I undertake my contribution to society. Yep, I hope you passed your English GCSE. Some of those words just hit the high-time.

Besides, I'm surprisingly comfortable coming up to me starting work again. Me being lazy and unimaginative would probably mean a considerable amount of time taken to get used to my new position and I would feel the nerves somewhat. However, being night shifts and I'm working with a few people I already know in an environment that is probably much easier than my last position, I feel reasonably comfortable with what is coming in the future. I'm sorry I don't mean to use incredibly long words but it's that time of the evening, (or morning), where long words keep you awake. Even if I'm not tired.

"You're not as brave as you were at the start
Rate yourself and rake yourself,
Take all the courage you have left
Wasted on fixing all the problems that you made in your own head"

That is the reality. Listening to 'Little Lion Man' by Mumford and Sons, made me realise that some of the problems I have had in recent years I have created myself. My stubborness in not opening up and not talking to people leads me to bottle things up and put pressure on myself. I have no quams in admitting that I create problems for myself sometimes just to try and get attention. I used to do this. A year or so ago. I'm too fed up with problems now to do such a thing and it's not fair on the people I hurt during these. I'm not proud of making problems. I didn't do it on purpose. I just wanted to feel wanted. They weren't fake problems. I just.... could of prevented them happening with a bit of effort. But I didn't want to. Nowadays, I try 100% to get out the hole I'm in. Employment helps that.

"I'm Gonna Make A Change,
For Once In My Life
It's Gonna Feel Real Good,
Gonna Make A Difference
Gonna Make It Right . . ."

Well said MJ.