Routine

'Routine' is a strange word that appears in my vocalubary from time to time. Routine suggests that your life is monotonous and boring and that you have no desire for variety or variation (are they the same word?), and that you will live out your life doing the same thing over and over until you end up in the wooden box. I'm not really certain how anyone can follow a "daily routine". Surely it would make you mad?

However, with productive routines, there are bad routines, such as the one I am in at the moment! Staying up till the break of dawn and getting up when it's dark outside during these cold and dark months really isn't good for productiveness - or finding a job. It's a force of habit I need to get out of. Besides, Cambridge tomorrow at 10.30am. That should help break it!

My need for a job increases not by the day but by the hour. My bank balance now resembles a tramp's and I fear my need to keep active will slowly die away as I run out of dosh. This may just sound greedy or whatever - but truth is truth..

'This Page Has An Unspecified Potential Security Risk - Would You Like To Continue?' keeps popping up on my screen every few seconds and it's driving me insane. My laptop is sick. Just thought you would like to know..

Anyway, as I'm sure you can tell, I am still one of the 1.1 million (or whatever the number is) 16-24 year olds who are unemployed, (a.k.a lazy arses), filling up precious space in the UK and my desire to change this fact is not getting stronger. In fact, part of me enjoys the laziness of days and nights. I know this is the wrong attitude to take, but I don't want to become like 40 million people who follow "routines" and become a monotonous sheep. I really don't.. The fact of the matter is however, that this is going to have to change soon or my dear Father may well stab me with a spoon. It hurts more than a knife.

The time is 1.08am. Maybe I should become the next talking clock. I need to be up at 10am at the latest to trek to Cambridge so I'm gonna be tired when it comes to it. No matter. I will bravely battle through the tiredness. It's not as if it'll be a bad day after all... Listen to me, droning on again - I'm surprised people even read this anymore..

Anyway, I shall leave you with a thought. I don't blame people who have a routine. If it helps them get through the working week then so be it. But surely it bores you to oblivion? I can't stand a lot more unhappiness without having a routine aswell...

Ciao x