A Bit About Me

Other than my very first blog, I've failed you as readers. The only things you know about me are the disastrous last couple of years of sadness and depression yet this hasn't been the case my whole life. In fact, it's mostly been the complete opposite. I'd be naive to say my childhood was hazardous because I reckon I had one of the very best.

20th May 1991 was when it all started, (I nearly typed 1001 there as a typo, which would of made me 1008 years old. Lucky I spotted that...) Anyway, my first passion in life was football. From a very, very early age you would never see me without donning my green and gold Man Utd kit and a mitre football at my feet, regardless of whether my right foot was strong enough to kick it. That Green and Gold kit was awful aswell.. If I was seen wearing that in 2010 I would be bullied off the face of the earth.. Besides, for the whole length of time where my age was a single digit, football was my one and only hobby. I spent from 6 years old till I was about 11 playing for a team called Samba Soccer as a centre midfielder. I vaguely remember scoring direct from a corner and punching someone in the face when i was 7 or 8 and not getting sent off for it.. Thank God things have changed! There were some properly good players in that team aswell and I even played against one of them this season. He still remembers me from the good old days, which is great!

I then had a very brief spell at Luton Town School of Excellence, whereas most of my friends at school who were good enough went to Northampton. My first true taste of rivalry! I only ever played in 2 matches though.. then my interest started to wane. I always felt I was introduced to the higher levels of the game much too early and this ruined the main reason why I played football in the first place. Enjoyment. As an 11-12 year old, you didn't want to travel half the length of the country to play a 30-minute per half match then trek home again.. It was stupid. I also played for a sunday league team, BPR. I quit on the first day of the 2004-05 season - I didn't like the manager and I was bored of the game.

This is when, after a few months, I decided to qualify as a referee. I still maintain this is the most valuable thing I have done with my life. Learning the game from an officials point of view was fantastic and the test of character I've developed over the 4 and a half years I have been a referee has been priceless. I honestly feel if I hadn't have developed some sort of backbone and mental strength to deal with morons on the football pitch, my troubles of the last couple of years would have been much harder.. I've been given great opportunities aswell and of course there have been major highs and major lows - but that's what makes it so great.

The last couple of years, I've delved deep into other sports. Mainly golf and cricket. I've learnt the sports fairly quickly and enjoy spending my time playing them. It gives me a release and gives me time to concentrate on something other than my brain. It's been great, yet fairly expensive! I feel more things will happen on that front in the near future, aswell as the refereeing. I haven't forgotten about playing football either. The last couple of years I've been playing Sunday morning football, as a goalkeeper, (mainly after spending one day down the park playing a blinder in goal and sticking with it ever since!)

Sport hasn't been my whole life though. I've had a brief and enjoyable acting career, mainly at school, which has vastly increased my confidence and gave me something to be terribly nervous about coming up to performance nights! I used to suffer terribly with nerves.. I remember my first ever play.. I had about 4 or 5 lines but I was convinced I would stuff them up! I did well though and never looked back! I'd like to get back into that if I could.. I may well look in to that in the near future...

Sport though, has been my main release from the troubles of the last couple of years. I am at my happiest when on some sort of pitch or course. Some of you may well be saying, why not follow a career in sport if you love it so much? Thing is, I would, if I wasn't afraid that if I spent my WHOLE life doing it - I would get fed up of it, leaving me with nothing. Maybe it sounds stupid? Just what I think..

Changing subjects completely, I've never really been the person for relationships. I like to keep myself to myself and just hang out with friends and have a laugh. I've had girlfriends in the past, but I've never really felt all that comfortable in them. Maybe it was me being confused with my sexuality or maybe I was just the sort of person who likes to be alone occasionally, it had nothing to do with the girls themselves. I've never really understood them. They're like a whole new species! It hasn't concerned me so much though..

So there you go. A bit about me that you may not have known before, or maybe you did. I just felt like you should know that there is more to me than the depressed or sad outlook that you see and hear today. My childhood was a good one, and sometimes it helps a lot to think of the good days, when fears and worries were non-existant, (except for if you were trying to avoid Wild Rattatas on Pokemon Red... the annoying little things!) ;)

Cya x